when i saw your nick.
i felt happy.
finally.
you're able to be happy.
new reasons to live.
i thank god you found them.
i'm the one who caused your troubles.
and i cant solve them for you..
im so sorry.
i didnt mean for it that way.
i wanted to help you see.
that there are many things in life worth living for.
but i failed.
i brought more things that arent worth living for.
im so sorry.
i didnt mean it that way.
i felt that.
im the cause.
i dont want to bring anymore trouble to you.
no more.
i know it must have been hard on you.
and im sorry.
a setback after another.
again and again.
making you lose hope.
im sorry.
i didnt mean it that way.
if only you didnt know me..
is what i always thought of.
cause if it wasnt for me.
nothing of these would have happened.
nothing.
and now.
after seeing your nick.
i felt relieved.
you were able to cherish your life now.
you're able to see.
that there are reasons to live.
in this world.
i thank god.
i really do.
im sorry for causing you problems.
i feel that.
its best.
if you do not associate with me.
for i.
am a horrible person.
i cause trouble for everyone.
everyone.
and im truely sorry.
i heard you're doing fine.
and i really felt relieved.
my whole heart sank when i realised you lost hope.
lost hope to live.
i really wanted you.
to see that there is something in life worth living for.
and i only made it worse.
i made it much much more worse..
but now.
i really thank god you're okay.
i didnt want to say this to you on the tele.
or on msn.
cause i know.
i wouldnt be able to say it.
out.
just like that.
so i hope.
you'll read this.
you'll know im refering to you.
and i just want to remind you.
there is no such thing as living without a reason.
you're born for a reason.
it may be for a person.
or a job.
or something.
you live for a reason.
you may be living to help someone.
or do something great.
but i feel.
that by living.
you're able to smile.
able to laugh.
to cry.
to enjoy.
to see that.
your friends.
family.
anyone.
are happy.
too be able to share your friend's trouble.
to be able to help when your friend is in need.
i feel that.
that is my reason to live.
i hope that.
you'll be able to find your reason.
that reason.
worth living for.
so.
dont take life so lightly.
you're lucky to be alive.
to have a family.
to have friends.
you're fortunate.
please see that.
if you leave.
everyone would be sad.
trust me.
its not that people dont like you.
they are just not used to be with people like you.
cause you're unique.
someone like you cant be found on any street.
you're not weird.
you arent a freak.
you're just unique.
and im sure.
there are people.
people near you.
or those you havent met.
they would love you for who you are.
im sure.
you're able to meet that someone.
someday.
so.
i hope now.
that you're reading this.
and understand.
that im sorry.
and i hope that.
you wont treat your life.
that lightly.
anymore..